Saying Sssssh to the Voice in My Head

by tinysneakers

I’ve been pretty quiet on the blogging front this summer. Aside from sticking with deadlines for projects I’m under contract for, I haven’t been writing much. It’s kind of funny: the longer I don’t write, the quieter the writing voice in my head gets. For the first time in as long as I can remember, I’m not constantly writing and composing my head, like a silent narration of my day. It’s what made me become a writer in the first place – that constant little voice that wouldn’t shut up. {And I don’t mean writer as in Writer, I just mean someone who writes –processes and absorbs daily happenings through written medium.}

At first I missed it. It’s like the words were getting stuck in my head and I couldn’t sleep or rest because I couldn’t get them out. But slowly they quieted, to the point where I almost couldn’t bring them out when I needed to. I know they’re still in there somewhere and it’s been nice to have a little break from there.

I think taking a mental break was just what I needed this summer. There’s no denying it – the toddler and I had fun.

What started out with me being nervous about suriving yet another summer school and childcare free turned out to be a blast. I’ll admit there was a week where I wondered what the heck I got myself into and regretted not signing up for at least one session of summer school {I even contemplated emailing myself a note to arrive next April saying DO IT}, but really, we were ok. There were days here and there, but for the most part, I enjoyed every minute of it. I started counting down the days to the start of preschool long before the beginning of August, but now that it’s here I’m almost nostalgic and not wanting our fun summer days to end.

Granted, I will probably be jumping for joy after I have my 5 minutes of sadness after dropping him off that first day, right now I’m busy reflected on what a great summer we’ve had, how big my little boy is getting, and how lucky I am to have had this time with him.

Saying goodbye to as many nonessential tasks I could, including writing outside of what’s technically my job, is absolutely the only thing that let me soak up the summer in enjoyment. Forgetting the to-do list, not worrying about doing things right or getting things, and just living in the moment every day. Sometimes we did some really fun stuff. Other times we just hung out and played. It was fabulous.

Now bring on school. Winking smile

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